Wednesday, February 18, 2009

life in jail

heres a poem i really adore.

Life Is A Prisonby PuffLife is a prison,Oh God let me out.No one to listen,To hear when you shout.Climb the walls of insanity,Ride the waves of despair.If you fall it don't matter,There's no one to care.Used to wish for a window,To see birds, trees and sky,But you're better without one -Stops you aiming too high.Watching freedom is painful,For those locked away.Seeing joy, love and happiness,Another price that you pay.Strong is good, weak is bad.Be it false, be it true.Your mind makes the choice,And enforces it too.Cell walls built by society,With rules to adhere.If you breach the acceptable,You had better beware.Hide the pain, carry on,Routine is the key.Don't let on that you're not,What you're pretending to be.Lock it all up inside you,How badly that bodes.Look out for that one day,When it all just explodes.Leaving naught but a shell,Base functionality too.But killing all else,That was uniquely you.So how do you grow,With a time bomb inside?Or how to defuse it,Without destroying its ride?You can't.

Friday, February 13, 2009

i no u never realized that im dead but i am. my parents found out yesterday. my counselor told me that was the next step. im having to write a journal/ book it dumb but wat ev here ya go.

1. How did you die? I don't want to talk about.(that wasnt good enough for tammy) ok. i slipped in the shower and bumped my freakin head.
2. How long have you been gone? sixteen months.
3. Death age/true age? 15/16
4. What do you miss most about being alive? food.
5. What, if anything, is cool about being a zombie? him
6. How did your family react to you coming back? they didnt no. now they dont say nothin. they just sit there.
7. Most humiliating moment as a zombie? finding out the hard way that i could puke.
8. Visible signs of zombiism? paler.
9. Goals/ambition? marry and be happy.
10. "If I were alive today, I would..." live life to the fullest and love unconditionally.

just something random

heres something i think is great:


1 Corinthians 13: 4-7


Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.